Little update

Hey guys! It’s been a while, huh?

Nothing major to report or write about. Things are going pretty well for us right now. I’m 5 weeks into my healthy changes, and 18 pounds down! I work out 6 days a week, changed my eating habits quite a lot, and am focusing on where I want to be, not where I am today. I used to make tons of excuses on why I couldn’t get into shape…too tired, not enough time, not enough money. Well, I feel more energetic now that I exercise. I exercise during my lunch breaks, and while the baby is napping/playing when I am at home. Didn’t join a gym, but walking is free and I also use workout DVD’s. I do crunches and strength training with 5 pound dumbbells at home. It’s possible. It’s not easy, but once you do it for a while, it becomes habit and you look forward to it. I am excited to see just how much in shape I can get. These 18 pounds were hard fought for, and I’m proud of them.

Dylan is doing great, he will be 16 months old this week! Getting so big, and into everything. He loves to watch me exercise, but when I’m doing crunches he lays across my belly LOL.

So that’s my story. Things are uneventful & quiet, and I love it that way!

Empowerment

I am feeling so strong and empowered. I am making healthy choices, left and right. I have eaten more fruits and veggies these past couple of weeks than probably all of 2011 combined! I drink water, unsweetened tea or seltzer only. I exercise every day, sometimes twice a day! I look forward to my lunchtime power walks to the point that I start fidgeting until I can go. I feel clear headed. My clothes are already getting baggy. Why did I wait this long to make these changes? Why have I missed out on feeling this good for so long?! I didn’t know what I was missing, but now that I do, there is no turning back.

I'm doing it :)

I mentioned in my last post how lethargic I feel, and just not great in general. Well, the very next day I made the decision to take the steps needed to start taking care of myself and make a difference in my health. Since last Tuesday I have lost 7 pounds, I have been active every single day, my eating habits have improved and my energy level has skyrocketed compared to how I felt.

I feel really freaking good.

I have way more energy to get things done when I come home from work after picking up Dylan. Before I was exhausted and wiped out--now I get all my chores done before 8pm. I have energy to play with Dylan, and we are both happier. J and I are getting along really well because of my positive outlook.

Don't get me wrong, things aren't all rainbows and unicorns, but in a little over a week's time my quality of life has improved greatly.

I am not making drastic changes, I am talking brisk walks during my hour long lunch breaks, moving more at home, cutting out all soda and eating more fruit & veggies. I still have certain things like rice, bread, potatoes...but smaller portions. I am making changes for the long haul--not just until I reach my goal weight. This is not only about the number on the scale or the size of my clothes-this is about my health!

Weekends are just too short.

I spent the entire weekend at home with Dylan, and it was wonderful. J ran a lot of errands for us, while I stayed home with the baby. I cherish those moments when it’s just him and I bonding. I love playing trains with him, singing songs to him, and chasing him throughout the apartment. He’s become such a big boy, and it’s so much fun doing the things that he likes. His favorite toy ever is the Thomas & Friends train set that I got him for Christmas, mainly that’s all he plays with right now. Who would’ve thought this girly girl would love playing “choo-choo”?! Another game that he loves is when I take my hair down from my ponytail, and tickle his face with it. This boy is obsessed with his mommy’s hair! I did it in front of J when she got home, and she said, “Look at his face! He is in heaven!”

I wish I could be a stay at home mom. I miss him so much right now.

I also wish I could try for # 2 soon. That is not in the cards for us at the moment. For one, I am just coming from an extremely emotional year, and don’t think I am ready to TTC right now. Secondly, I don’t feel so great health wise. Lately I feel very lethargic, I have no energy, and I don’t feel my best. I am not too hard on myself for not taking great care of myself recently, but I will have to make some changes before I jump on the baby wagon again. Nothing extreme needs to happen, but I need to start taking vitamins again, eat healthier and become more active. Lastly, I want to enjoy spending time with Dylan while he is a one year old and an only. I would like to TTC at the end of the year. I want to very VERY badly, but I have to be practical as well and do what’s best. I am 32, so I feel that I still have some time, but I feel the clock ticking anyway!

For now, I am thoroughly enjoying the time I have with my son. I love his little mischievous smirk, I love the way he runs around, I love the way he giggles when I push his trains on his track, I love the way he hugs me, and I love the smell of his hair. I love how he snuggles closer when I sing to him in the rocking chair, and I love how he is the only person in the world who loves my singing.

Heaven gained another angel

The baby I posted about, Tripp, passed away yesterday morning in his mommy's arms in his favorite spot. This little boy touched so many people, and made such a difference in his two years and 8 months on this Earth, I know he sure did in my life. RIP sweet angel.

Prayers for Tripp

I have been reading a blog that I found of a two year old baby boy named Tripp who lives with a skin disorder that makes his body and internal organs blister and become raw. I can't even fathom the pain that this beautiful boy deals with 24/7. He cannot leave the house, let alone even stand up. His young mommy Courtney and her mother spend every single day rocking him in the rocker in the same position. He absolutely dreads getting his diaper changed and baths are so horrible for him that he needs a sedative to get through. His doctor believes that he doesn't have much time left on this Earth, his entire body is swollen. He can't even hold his best friend, a little plastic Elmo. His mommy has so much strength, faith in God and courage. The link to his blog is on the right side of my blog called "Praying 4 Tripp". Reading her blog puts so much into perspective for me. It makes me appreciate EVERY.SINGLE.MOMENT that I have with my son, good and bad. I always think of Tripp when I'm having a bad day because of being exhausted, and my attitude gets turned right back around. I pray that God gives him peace and comfort in any possible way, shape or form....

We're going to Disney :)

So, I definitely meant what I wrote in my other post today about having fun this year--I booked us a Walt Disney World vacation the week of Halloween! Leaving on Dylan's birthday and coming back the day before mine! Ahhhhhhh, can't wait!! Our first trip as a couple and first family trip!